some time has passed..... lol

its coming 2 weeks since i last posted.... lol.... partially cos i'm kinda bz... partially cos i'm kinda lazy too... (more of the latter) :P

its been a bz 2 weeks, with tons to do and to coordinate... assigments seem to be starting to due really sooner than expected... and everything seems to be converging on to the same day... -waves around frantically to try to stay afloat- where is time in all this!? it seems to have disappeared and one day seems the same from the other... not tat i'm complaining, come to accept this as part of life le... lol so sad but so true... trying to enjoy the process of it...

the fyp is kinda getting on my nerves... with that particular group member, and that lecturer... i tot it was kinda a bad combo already... and to add on, the superviosr is not really sure of wat to do... lol.... sighz, guess that means have to read up more and to be prepared to work double the effort if i want an A for this module... JIA YOU to the rest of my group members!! we can do it!! -showing my "D" trait here"- we got to be professional!!

so many things are happening... so much to write... so lazy... lol

i feel myself changing... for the better, for once... and i'm happy with life as it is now... no complains, just some whinning here and there... but i'm contented... at ease..... :)

yet another week of my life has come to pass....

yupz... its been yet another week.... but then again, this week was quite a short and fast week... mayb cos the holiday in the middle made it more bearable... lol.... but i got to say this... I DIDN"T GET TO WATCH A SINGLE FIREWORK DISPLAY THIS YEAR!! hahaha... yes, u heard me rite... so many displays and yet i didn't catch one... sighz.... well, there is always 1st of jan to look forward to ba... hahaha... something to keep me going...
so far, sch is still as bz as ever.... loads of readings and such... but i'm still in the holiday mood!! hahaha.. have been going out tons the last week.... lets see, i went out on mon to catch lakehouse with lynn after sch... stayed in sch for fyp meeting on tues... went out to marina sq with jc people for lunch and supper with lynn on wed... drop dead tired on thurs so came home early to slp... reached home at 7 plus on fri to finish up as much work as possible so can chiong during the weekends.... spent sat celebrating dia's birthday at her place and at holland.. met up with jc fren to do some shopping, or at least he did and met lynn for dinner.... and came back early today cos cancelled fyp meeting...
woah... thats quite a lot of stuff in one week... lol... its been ok la... but think i should kinda start my studying soon le... think got loads to cover for this sem, like every other sem...lol....
something in me clicked during this the earlier part of this week..... i kinda could let go of the past already... i'm over her, i can confidently say tat.... but whether i'm ready for another relationship, i'm not sure... i kinda dono where to go with this... but will learn to take things slow and see if things work out... i mean, there is no rush rite!? just hope mayb things might work out between us... after all, i dono how she really feels about me... mayb its kinda one sided... well, lets wait and see....

where am i going.... am i who i think i am....

the past week kinda flew by..... d days just came and go one after another.... yes, i was all happy and stuff in sch... but are those feelings for real? or have i numbed myself so much that i dono what is it like to feel happy, for real.... like the past week, the past months have past in a blur for me... i guess mayb i was just too eager to try to get back to life so much that i decided to numb myself to everything... but now that i got abit of time on my hands, everything comes crashing into one another in my head... i look around me and still see things tat remind me of her.... and some part of me still wants her back... is this normal!? i know she is happy and i'm forcing myself to let go... but where will this bring me?! i feel like an empty shell....

i can't really think straight these days, and i feel its kinda affecting the way i work... i feel that i'm not performing up to my best, or even anywhere close... my tots are all scattered... and i can't seem to get a grip of myself at times... i just hope i can somehow find some way to sort this out a little before i get drown in work again....

this life seems slightly meaningless at the moment...