where am i going.... am i who i think i am....

the past week kinda flew by..... d days just came and go one after another.... yes, i was all happy and stuff in sch... but are those feelings for real? or have i numbed myself so much that i dono what is it like to feel happy, for real.... like the past week, the past months have past in a blur for me... i guess mayb i was just too eager to try to get back to life so much that i decided to numb myself to everything... but now that i got abit of time on my hands, everything comes crashing into one another in my head... i look around me and still see things tat remind me of her.... and some part of me still wants her back... is this normal!? i know she is happy and i'm forcing myself to let go... but where will this bring me?! i feel like an empty shell....

i can't really think straight these days, and i feel its kinda affecting the way i work... i feel that i'm not performing up to my best, or even anywhere close... my tots are all scattered... and i can't seem to get a grip of myself at times... i just hope i can somehow find some way to sort this out a little before i get drown in work again....

this life seems slightly meaningless at the moment...