m i over-sensitive?

i m suppose to feel happy, after surviving 8 hours of tiring cycling around Singapore... more of the western and central sides of Singapore.... but i'm not... tired yes, but didn't really find it enjoyable... it was fun ant certain points of the journey.... but many of the places that we went to brought back memories... memories that i've been trying to suppress for the moment... things might have been different if we had taken the route that i had in mind... but wats done is done...

got 4 hours of slp... woke up cos i was dreaming of the two of them again... when will this ever stop?? i don't want to wake up eveytime wanting to cry.... am i just being over-sensitive? i just can't really stand the tot of them together... i know that sounds evil... but still.... it hurts big time for me...

am i trying too hard to convince myself that i'm happy cos she is now?! i am happy to a certain extend, but i dono.. its still hard to deal with... looking at her now... being so happy, really makes me wonder... if the relationship that we had for 9 months really existed.... or was i just living in a dream, a dream of my own.... a dream that i forced her to live too?? maybe, at the end of the day, i was really making her miserable.... to the point that she wants to forget everthing so soon... am i at fault?!

as much as its getting on my nerves... i don't think i really want to bother people about it.. i mean, wat more can they say than wat they have already said? i don't want to be come irritating too.... there is only so much of your problems that u can throw to them about.... they got their own set of problems too... y would they need yours too? i feel bad sometimes wanting to talk to them about it... think i have troubled them enuff with this...

y is it so hard to get over someone!?